know when to stop.

Sometimes human beings are just being weird. Despite knowing that it brings about hurt to own self, yet willing to see/hear it. I guess it’s undeniable that everyone just don’t mind knowing truth, no matter how hard it is, they just don’t want to be in the dark not knowing anything. And I am one of them too. (:    

Oh, baking cake with my sister’s DPA friends at my grandma house was fun. Just that some of them claimed that i look like how i looked in my IC photo with my new haircut. AW MAN. I don’t want to. Because that was taken when I was sec 3, super xmm can! >,< gaaah, whatever. 

Just two more days and he’ll be back to my side. (:

this lovely thursday.

 

winona & sue !

 

we call ourselves Chan Han Zhong

 

we're the handsome and pretty DAL heeh!

 

we're all the crazy DALs

 

I am school team's er, xmm player.

 

Hi to all my dear readers! I apologize for the lack of updates over the past few days. And so, what’s up? On Thursday, I had a great lunch meet-up with my dearest secondary school girlfriends at CU. We had a great time “bitching” about Elton. (you can’t blame us, it was a girls’ talk after all) HAHHA! But it’s not surprising why we’re talking about him! By the way, we also had a great catch up with each other’s life. Technically, I had a great catch up session with Shin, Marcia, Biyo and lihui that day. I totally enjoyed that meal! 😀

When the time 12:22 came, I went off to meet Han at je. He was sweet okay, though he was late. He can reach school within like 15 minutes; yet he took train down to meet me to go school together just because I mentioned it randomly. So his route to school became one big round but I guess it wasn’t wasted because I managed to update him everything about my life. What are besties for right! (;

Then we went to library to look for our dearest juniors! (did I mentioned that I have no money to pay for my honey red tea? X: omg) Anyway, then together with everyone, we headed to canteen two for lunch. Huaizhong joined us shortly. After the juniors left for their lessons at three, the 3 DAL (chan han zhong) started cam whoring because I wanted to! Hahhaha.

At three thirty, Han and I went to btp to meet up with sue and rest for pool session while waiting for our juniors to join us again after their lessons. It was definitely a great get together with all the DPA people. A pity that Shawn and Jasper etc left before we reached. All fun ended at six thirty and I took bus home with Jason for dinner.

That day was the second best day of that week! (Ranked first was Elton’s birthday lols)

Alright, I shall end my post here! 😀

my new plan

Alright people, ignore my previous post. After all it’s your life, I am not really in any position to comment/criticize or whatsoever. Mood wasn’t in the best after I had blog hopping in the morning, I saw many things that got me in a terrible pensive mode. Oh well, I am not going to think about it, let nature take it course I suppose? Anyway! I officially declare that holiday has started for me! Hurrays. And yes, I am working hard on my diet, life style and etc. So people, I am going for a run every other day at the garden at shinyi house there 😀 Hopefully I can. LOLLS.  

Alright, bye! I am going for a run 😀 

Mabel, I accepted. HHAHAHA, so in other words, I am attached. (Y) Anyway, sorry about ending the call so abruptly because my mum was kind of worried for the lost Ezlink card.

this is annoying i swear!

I am leaving my hands out of people’s relationship stuffs okay! So people, if you can, don’t share with me unless you need my ears badly. I am sick of it. Like, so many misunderstandings in between yet I don’t know where went wrong! The worst thing ever is that I got dragged into it for no reason? If relationship gets terribly faulty with many many problems, BREAK OFF OKAY. To be honest, couples who patch and break every other time, and have some stupid happenings, don’t last long. I am not being mean. You may think you got yourself romantic relationship with so many happenings like idol drama, I will tell straight into your face- You got yourself a very lousy bf/gf. And come on,Isn’t that breaking up what youths are best at doing?You guys don’t even cherish relationship, why act like you’re so into each other? Tsk. It’s lame. What’s over is over, what’s the point of dwelling over the past that is freaking haunting you! I am serious, like love is only a part and parcel of life! Why let it become the only reason you live on this Earth, what about the parents who brought you to this world, what about the friends who have been supporting you all along? Every time you get so hurt and upset over some love matters, have you thought of the bigger picture? I mean like, it’s alright for you to get sad, but what comes after that is – accept the fact and MOVE ON WITH LIFE! Some people knows that their life is sucky, yet they’re not doing anything. then hello, what’s the point of complaining and whining so much! JUST SHUT UP. We should learn to stand up from where you fell from and do better the next time round. We are still young, there are much more other things about life other than just love! Love shouldn’t be the only reason why your world is still turning! WAKE UP. Moreover, there are more pitiful people out there who lives a very sad life yet chose tobe positive and live their day to the fullest, why can’t fortunate people like us do the same? And please be logical, don’t do things that you regret and hurt dearest people around you. One very good example will be the  Hi my sweetheart. I know i love the show, but I hated xuehai for what he had done for the sake of revenging. This is stupid okay. She hurt you, then? It’s just childish to choose to hurt her back no matter how much hurt she has caused you. GROW UP. I mean seriously, don’t just grow up physically but at the same time, improve your mentality too!

You just ruined my day.

This is cool huh!

 

the lil sweet yet strong boy (:

 

he makes me smile

 

Oh woah, this is interesting. My blog views shot so high after the confession post. It seems like quite a number of you are interested in knowing who this guy is! HAHA. (still no intention to say) :O

Anyway, today was a busy day! I had to entertain my lil boy who nearly spoilt the keyboard of my mac, and also mugging for tmr’s paper! This lil boy is the sweetest on Earth can. And I am glad that I can take care of him since young, and was able to see his growing process. He used to be a very active boy who watches King kong & Hulk at very young age and goes around hitting people with bolster, refusing to sleep! But when it’s night time, he’ll come to you and lie in your arms for you to feed him milk. So he’ll lie in my arms and laps while i hold his milk bottle for him and lullaby him to sleep. When you wanted a hug, he will run to you with a big wide smile and hug you tightly. When you’re on streets, you requested him to not wander around, he’ll hold on to your hands with his small lil hands. And today, he jumped onto my bed and asked me to hug him. I hugged him so naturally and he said “I want jiejie!” in a very naive kiddish voice. Omg, I swear I melted that instance. But I guess this won’t really last, when he grows up, I doubt he’ll even want to talk to me. T.T

BUT ANYWAY (back to my update),  I know many if you are jealous because I only have that freaking one and only paper and that, i started later yet ended my exam earlier than anyone of you. HEEEH. K singing session tmr and also to meet lessy! I am so excited 😀

Alright, i am turning in! so I am ending my post now! 😀

-GOODLUCK TO EVERYONE FOR TMR’S PAPER! 

The day he trembled & I laughed.

 

Finding an answer.

 

Today is a very unique day for me, as well as for him too I suppose. This was the first time I saw him sweating and shaking, and his face was really red. He was blushing. And I guess he was really tensed up, because he told me he trembled when he saw the lift was coming down from the fourth floor (because I stayed at fourth floor). He handed me a rose, and kept telling me that he’s very nervous. If you didn’t knew, that was my first time receiving a flower. LOL

By the way, we were sitting at the stairs while he took real long to gather his courage to say what he wants to say to me. I was laughing away, but I wasn’t laughing in the inside for how bad he was doing in bringing across what he wanted to say to me because I saw him putting in his best effort. But anyway, he still failed to say it at the stairs even after much trying All he said was, he see me for 7 years already, this was the first time he didn’t dare to look into my eyes. I was amused by that sentence.

However, he decided to say it when we are 59 steps away from the bus stop which was the meeting place with our friends. Though I kind of expect what he wanted to say, but I still made him say everything because he actually asked for a discount when he is supposed to be confessing! How can he wanted to skip to the last sentence! Be that it may, he still managed to say everything out and to be honest, when he stood right beside me to tell me that he’s willing to be the one who fits my bill, I was touched for a moment. If you guys are excited what happened next, I am sorry to disappoint you, we only went to meet our friends. This is the fullest extend I can share about, I have no intention to share my thoughts and emotions here  :X

Dear readers, if you are interested in whoever this dumb boy is, I am sorry to disappoint you again. He is for me to know, for you to find out (that’s if I want to let you know) teeheeh! 😀

I guess Mabel must be damn shocked after reading till here. Mab, I will fill you in on wednesday when we meet! (: 

Anyway, today was a great day at Mr ngien house. (though I didn’t like the shunning cats part). Had a fun time with Marcia, Jun Liang, Elton, Shin Yi, & Jiayu (:

I am not alil, but very weird

 

Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. ♥

 

Many a times I really did want to have a bf, because I want to have someone to be there for me when I need him. Someone who listens to my ranting, stands up for me, lends me his shoulder, but at the same time, able to put up with all my weakness. putting up with other other girls is nothing, but it’s a tough thing to do for my case. Simply because I am someone who came from ten generations back (alfie, 2009< in text citation). So what’s about a girl who came from ten generations back? Just so you know, I am prolly the noob-est girl you could find on Earth, things I don’t know is countless, and my thinking is just so out-of-date that you might be wondering why did you have such a stupid girlfriend while others have such great gf. HAHAH. Have the guys who read till this part chose to click away from my blog because you certainly don’t want a gf like me? But yah, that’s me. The worst thing is, there are actually time/moments when I love to be only with myself. In other words, I wish I don’t have a bf? However, that doesn’t mean I don’t like him. Just that I need time to myself. And that, my bf has to understand me and not be annoyed by those random moments. I am not a girl who love/wants to stick 24/7 with my bf, I hope both of us can still have our own social circle. (not sure if i might change, heeeh). Like what weilun said about some gf who literally became the terminator of their bf’s life, leastways am I going to disrupt his life. Similarly, I don’t want him to change my life much too. Yet! I am someone who easily feels unsafe, i doubt any guys would have the ability to fulfill all of the above yet able to give me a sense of security. LOLLLLS

See!  An average girl yet asking so much from her bf, that’s me! So you won’t be surprised why am I single till now. hahahha!

“Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being “in love” which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.” 
-St. Augustine

Studying session!

 

hardworking huh!

weird nurse!

the two noisy boys!

 

the hardworking girl! 😀

 

Yesterday went to Elton’s house to bainian, and also to study. I was quite on track because I’ve managed to read through all my notes! 😀  So yup, I met Elton & junliang & Jiaqi at CU for lunch before taking bus to Elton’s house. I swear his mum looks damn young, I was quite shocked. And also, his house was way too neat than how I imagined it to be. LOL. and we started studying early and I finished mine at four plus, and I headed to sleep because I was really tired. Here comes the best part, his bed was really comfortable, especially the blanket! HAHA, and I fell asleep within 6 mins. Not only that, I had dreams. heeeeh :B woke up at five plus and watched ylblf with the rest cause they finished studying too, while angella enjoys sleeping at the table. we were all wondering why didn’t she sleep on the comfortable sofa. LOL then I went home for dinner! 😀

Elton’s mum said that  gella & I are pretty. hahaha! 😀  (Y)

A lovely singing session

 

junliang!

 

biyosasa!

 

elton sooon!

 

Jun liang & gary!

 

sista !

Today was a perfect day spent with Biyo, Elton, Jun liang and gary! We sing, sang, sung! 😀

Though gary tortured our ears alil, I still enjoyed a lot. Singing with biyo was nice & sweet, while singing with Jun liang was excellence! (:  

I am studying tmr! aja aja.

a short complain

I was asking, what is the reason for a need to have reunion dinner every year on my way home just now. For most Singaporeans, it is actually a day for everyone to get together with their other family members because often we are always so packed with our work that we have little time for each other. Yet it doesn’t seems so for my dad’s side family.

There are several reasons why I felt disappointed with the dinner. Firstly, my parents and I reached there at five to help out because the dinnertime was set at six thirty. However, even that no one came early to help, they were late for an hour. That really puts me off okay. Some didn’t even help in any way, all they did was came to eat and went off. Like what the heck? My mum was like, cleaning everything and no one volunteered to help! Everyone was happily watching the television while my mum was down there cleaning the floor! SCREW IT. My mum is the maid, is it? Then also, I felt that we all don’t behave like a family? 2 elders + 8 adults +16 grandchildren, so many people yet so little interaction. You call that a family?

Whatever it is, it’s really saddening. Thank god my grandma is cute! 😀 she loves me and she’s the reason why I still look forward to every year’s reunion dinner. 

Oh anyway, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE OUT THERE! 😀