刚到手的时候疼人家到骨子里去，每天给她打十几个电话，发几十条信息，她说什么你都铭记在心，想吃什么、想买什么、想去哪里你都会尽全力去满足，温柔体贴无微不至，巴不得二十四个小时都能跟她呆在一起；一开始总是包容的，就算她的生活习惯与你不同也会努力的调试配合，一切一切都是美好的…

久了，腻了！每天别说几十个电话，就连1个电话都懒得打，打电话时只说具体情况，把那些觉得无关要紧的“情趣”话都省了；信息就更不用说了，她发10条你回有一半你就觉得你回的已经够多了，就连她打电话给你你都觉得她啰嗦！

你不会再为她想吃早点而早早起床，你不会再为她排队买她想要东西，你不会专门请假带她去她想去的地方，你会觉得她什么事都依赖着你，让你觉得她麻烦事特多！

接着你会发现她的缺点越来越多，她的优点快被她的缺点掩盖，你快忍无可忍！最后，厌了！潇洒的用“分手吧！”一句简单的言语结束了复杂的感情；或耗着等着，直到有一天她受不了忽冷忽热或若即若离的态度自己选择离开，你还可以说是她自己离你而去，你没有负心…

 

男人，你记不记得你曾经说过：“我永远都会对你这么好，一辈子都这样爱着你宠着你！”

不是她麻烦事特多，是你一开始就说得做得太到位，才会让她依赖上你！

你记不记得你曾经说过：“不管多晚，睡不着都可以打电话给我，我的手机24小时都为你开机！”

那你又嫌她不体贴，白天工作的时候打电话打扰到你，辛苦了一天晚上要睡觉了她还缠着你不肯挂线。是谁让她养成何时何地想打电话给你就打电话给你的习惯？

她无理取闹,

那是因为从某一个时间段你的态度变了，你开始冷落她了；让她觉得没了安全感，由使她起疑心！不是她不信任你，不给你空间，而是她爱你，在乎你，用尽所有时间去关心你，你的生活细微改变都牵扯着她的情绪！

她脾气不好,

那是因为她有很多时候知道了很多事情，但你不说，她都选择沉默，在一直沉默；积压到一定的时间她们就会爆发心中的所有怨气；要知道，这一些都不是她脾气不好，是你不够细心发觉，她们是一直积压下来的！

她不再跟以前一样动人 ?

当初是谁说不喜欢她每天变化多端像只花蝴蝶，是谁说喜欢她素颜的清纯模样？虽说喜新厌旧是人性，除了毛主席跟古董以外，什么东西看久了都会审美疲劳；但她不是东西，她是个活生生有着感情的人！

你不再给她答案，不再给她承诺，不希望你以后做不到让这些答案跟承诺变成谎言

那你以前又给她那么多答案，给她那么多承诺，现在为自己铺好后路可以前承诺过的叫她怎么忘记？女人不怕诺言没实现，怕的是你承诺了又不去实现，最后实不实现是另一个问题！

 

你忙，你没时间没精力讨好她，你不知道她现在在想什么？

那你以前不忙吗？你以前是不是就把全部时间用来讨好她而不用工作？那你以前怎么都那么细心观察她在想什么？

你觉得你们不配，你不想她再浪费感情在这段没结果的爱情上。那你一开始追她干嘛？做实验啊？她都已经浪费这么多感情了，你当感情是水龙头啊，说开就开说关就关！对，这一切都是你给自己找的借口！别以为换个女朋友就可以永远摆脱那种感情暗淡时期，因为不久的将来你还是得回到这种时光，下个女朋友也是，下下个女朋友也是，下下下个女朋友也是，有种你一辈子不谈恋爱不结婚…

男人们，看完了回想一下你们的那段美好时光，趁现在没有人偷偷想想是不是你们给自己找借口了？那个以前深爱的女人现在就那么不值得你爱了么？别说你瞎了狗眼以前才会跟她在一起，因为你没瞎，也请不要侮辱到狗！后悔分手的赶快努力从新追回来，以后用心经营着共有的感情！其实女人要的很简单，只想要一个爱自己男人就够了…想要分手的考虑清楚，并不是每段感情都可以挽回的！考虑太久也不行，因为她们可以忍耐你冷落她一段时间，但不会一辈子傻下去；她们再怎么傻，也会给自己一个时间段，去忍受你的冷落，去相信你的爱；但时间一到，她们会毫不犹豫的离开，到那时再多的甜言蜜语都没有用了，因为这世界上没有谁离开谁就活不了！

 

恋爱中的，好好珍惜现在那个愿意照顾你，体谅你，愿意陪你承担风雨的傻女人吧！过了这个村，或许就没这个店了…

到时间结婚的就结婚吧，不要再拖拖拉拉婆婆妈妈；结婚证一领就像买了保险，至少心里都有底了…

爱情，就像煮粥！滚烫的时候加点配料它就是够火候又有滋有味的；等到忘记关火煮焦了的时候，你闻都不想闻它甚至你连锅都想把它扔了…

看好你的火吧.

He’s the only light in the complete darkness

Have you ever feel so depressed because you realized the world isn’t as beautiful as you wished? Or rather, it starts to get uglier as we grow up. That was how I felt yesterday. I can’t pinpoint the exact main reason why I was in a lousy mood last night, but I guess it’s just a 3% mini breakdown when all the shyts comes together to me at a go. And that makes me so reluctant to grow up. I’m afraid to grow up. However, a part of me still wishes to grow up, create my future which I want to marry to the love of my life and have kids with him, and of course, a successful career etc, how ironic right. I know I sounded so naive and silly because ‘This is just life’, and ‘Shyt happens, all the time’. I always know life is just like this, with all the rubbish people to hurt and mould us into a stronger person, and I just have to move on with life, but, it’s just so awful when life don’t go the way I want. 

And I hate when it when people judge me. (I usually does that only for entertainment purposes, so yeah, not considered evil right?) But oh well, some people will just hate you no matter what, it’s not possible to please everyone, and since my purpose in life isn’t to be Miss Nicey to everyone, I’m just going to rant and get over with this already. I will just love people who loves me. I treat you nice if you’re nice to me. And please, backstab is just such a nono. It reflects so much about someone, srly. 

 

Ohohooh, here’s a mini side track! 😉

We were walking to library …

Baby: Eh na! This is for you! *show me the plastic bag with all the crisps of his finished popiah*
Me: Waaaa, you’re really so nice you know! Where to find such nice boyfriend like you! (teasing tone)

Next second, passed by a bin …

Baby: *Throws the plastic bag in*
Me: Oeeeei, why you throw away, I got say I don’t want meh! (I was just trying to be funny you know)

Baby: O.o ? Okay, you said it ! I’ll go take it out !
Me: *Panic for one and a half second and faster hold him back* Wahlao, I was just kidding !

Me (the mouth itchy go add on) : But hor, if i say i really want it, you will really go take meeeh? (i sounded like he won’t dare to put his hands in to take)
Baby: *walk back down the stair* You say one hor! I take already, you better eat I tell you! HAHAHA

Me: D: HUH *tried pulling him back but failed*
Baby:  *put his hands in and take it out*

Me: oh my gawd? DDDD:

WIN ALREADY LO. Crazy man X: hahhahaha! but then we ended up laughing , and we randomly went to book room for fun cause it’s 25 minutes to his next class time, and I swear he looked damn cute when he say it was his first time bookin np lib room! HAHAHHA . But I still want to thank that loveliest irritating guy on Earth for being the one always there to listen to my rantings even when he was busy with his work too. 

WONG.JUN.LIANG FTW! (Y)

Blahblaaaaah, I’m spending too much time here. Got to leave and continue with work ! 😛

 

 

When is january ever gonna end?

I don’t know why but I feel like it’s been ages since I updated my blog. I guess each and every day (after 9 Jan) feels like a week. The day seems like it’s dragging like anything I feel so weary. I hate to climb out of bed to bathe and then spend an hour on bus just to go school for all the boring lectures and tutorials. I know when my internship starts, I’m gonna whine like some kid about how much I miss NP, and would rather attend lessons than to working/china. But whatever. Just let me rant ):

And today is the day I feel utterly disappointed in my poly mates. All the times I go around telling people that Poly isn’t where you can find nice friends because it’s too competitive, but now it’s like 100 percent true because that is what happened for my case. It’s where you see people judge you by grades and only befriend with you if you have something that benefits them, or they will just jolly back stab you like anything. 

This is how ugly people can be. 

And all the assignments are such a pain in the ass. Like literally. I have to plan my schedule so tightly just because I’ve got so much work to clear. And I hate show I am stucked in school from 9 am – 9 pm. I can’t even spend quality time with family, baby and clique. It’s been how long since we had dinner at CU );  I really can’t wait for January end so badly.

However, to end up this post, I just got to add onto thank and share how glad I am to have this particular person by my side through all these shyts.
He was the one who appears like a superhero with a thumbdrive when I was panicking for one to print out my stuffs,
wishes me luck for my interview when i was feeling so nervous,
the one who smiles like he’s shy or what whenever i smiled like a silly over unknown reason,
the one who loves to burp at my ears,
the one who reads my mind when I’ve yet to voice out,
the one who accompanied me to do voice recordings,
the someone who laughed like a silly when he turns to talk to me but realised it was somebody else,
the one who eats & drinks with me in library secretly,
the one who shakes my flabby arm everyday without fail,
the one who plays with my hair randomly,
the one who takes his hoodie out when the rain starts to pour,
the one who puts his hands out to hold my hands because he doesn’t want lose me in the crowd,
the one who listens to all my rantings about school and people, 
the one who I can laugh everything anything so heartedly with. 

P.s That irritating guy next to me is so cute. HAHAHA

And that’s no other than my boyf (:
Thank you Wong Jun Liang ♥

happyyyy dateeeee! :D (updated with more photos!)

A big hello to all the readers who still stay tuned to my blog despite the long time that I haven’t been updating! It was a really hectic month for me, or rather it’s an understatement. I could actually feel how it’s like to strike a balance between family, relationship and friends. But I guess I did pretty well X: It’s just that I spend most of my time alone in room rushing out report, the whole time was really crazy.

14 January 2011, Friday

We took cab down to Bencoleen street to conduct an interview with the ThirtySix Lomography shop owner – Jimmy. It was probably one for the unluckiest thing ever happened to me in my poly years so far.

15 & 16 January 20, 2011, Saturday & Sunday.

A weekend about boyfriend + family + school work.

The weekend was entirely dedicated to complete Media Ethic, Law & Policies essay. IT’S REALLY SUCKY except for parts with boyfriend & family.
Spent time @ Clementi with family, queued up for Koi and then headed to meet baby for lunch @ Jp mac.

Then it was just rushing my essay for the rest of Sunday. Gross max.

17 January 2011, Monday – Lesson @ Singapore Media Academy

Went for the second lesson at SMA on Monday and it was pretty interesting because we get to have the hands-on experience of how a news time is put up. But I was unlucky enough to be the last group, and had to wait till Friday again because we didn’t had enough time. So went back to school, rushed to buy lunch and headed for four hours straight of lectures. The rest of the day was great because I had baby’s hoodie with me to keep me warm despite the windy cold weather.  

18 January 2011, Tuesday

Attended lesson, lunch with baby, and lesson. Nothing else.

19 January 20, 2011, Wednesday

Accompanied baby to his class, and then we headed to Bukit Timah Market to have lunch together and slacked in library till our class time, and then he ‘fly me aeroplane’ and headed home to feed fifi who had no food for the past twenty hours.

20 January 2011, Thursday

Took bus to school with baby and we were so late. And after our own lessons and my editing, we headed down to Vivo for a random long awaited date. So had lunch @ Macs, and then watched ‘The ghosts must be crazy’. It was more like a comedy, and now I’m kinda afraid of Mark Lee now. He look horrendous in the Nonya dressing. And then we walked around for shoes and clothes, and then went to the Garden to take pictures!

I totally just enjoyed myself so much except that he keeps bullying me like he can’t live for not disturbing me for a minute. But in fact, I know I had a great time, and those were laughter right from the bottom of my heart. And for that, I want to thank that silly boy who made an effort to entertain me so much with the waves, and tickets magic performances though you’re so tired. Thank you baby. You’re really the best person on Earth I could have have found. Love you! 😀

 

I’m sorry for the lack of quality in updates but I’m just too busy. I just wish to note each and everyday down so these memories will not be forgotten so easily. So pardon me readers, I’ll be back soon with a better one yeah! 😀

 

first four week days in 2011

Okay, reached home pretty early today and here I am to update my blog before I get busy again for the next few days! S:

Short Update:

• Monday 10 January, 2011

-Missed the SMA trip with class so I just took bus to NP to accompany baby through his lunchtime from 12 to 1, then I headed down to meet NP YHSS alumni peeps @ Yuhua for the O’ levels results. We claimed to be there to promote NP, but we were just there to be busybodies X:

-Headed to Jp with Baby, gella, marcia, kai, lihui and shin to have lunch @KFC, and walked around. It’s funny when Marcia just sat there and analyze Jurong’s Ahlian for us to listen. 

• Tuesday 11 January, 2011

The morning was in bed as I was feeling so unwell and lethargic. Then I woke up after I received baby’s morning text that he ended class already, so I woke up straight away to prepare to meet him. But I took forever that he ended up coming to fetch me instead of meeting at CU. Then we walked to CU together and had lunch there. And he just keep shooting him until very happy lo, tsktsktsk! But since it makes him laugh like one silly boy, then let him shoot lo. After that help me plaster up can already X:  hahaha!

Had lunch and head off to his house to slack the whole day with Teevee, fifi and his mum. And his mum is damn friendly and nice to talk with (:

• Wednesday 12 January, 2011

– Went for Media project management class, and then headed to meet baby to shop around co-op while he accompanies me till my dad come to fetch me.

-Took dad’s car down to SMA (singapore media academy) for lesson, and since we were there early, we stood there to talk along Singapore River. 

-Went into have lessons, and then took train home alone. The ride was damn long and tiring because my tummy was growling, and it was raining some more X.X 

-Had alil conflicts with baby ):

• Thursday 13 January, 2011

-Morning is the suckiest of all, and I never want a second time like this, if I hadn’t went back to take my Ezlink card, all that in the morning wouldn’t have happened S: And the worse thing is, when you want to cry, people come up to borrow pen from you =.= Now that I’m describing it sounds alil comical, but i was so heartbroken and it was so obvious but the 3 aunties walked up to borrow pen from me, and still talk to me. I was like ‘har o.o?’ But then I hurried off cause I’ll be late for class. The texts we sent each other hurt each other a lot. 

-Went to Vidpro class but I was feeling so terrible that I was outside half of the class time, and I really don’t know why the wind at Blk 52 is so strong, blow until I had to go toilet to vomit. And my donut all into the toilet bowl X: Then had some problems with the transfer of clips, my heart nearly had attack because we’re faced with the possibilities of re-shooting drama which might cause my life. haha! But then fortunately everything was fine. So then I headed to library to finish up my cover letter and get started on my resume while waiting for meeting time. But then things got better for no reason, baby smiled at me and I know the storm’s over. So he accompanied me to library to pack my stuffs and headed home. He even had a small group of fans club smiling at him when we left. TSKTSK *ROLL MY EYEBALLS* The girlfriend so big, stand right at there , which is me(!), still ogle like anything ! :@  hahahah!

So we were reading newspaper on our bus journey back home .__. can you believe? HAHA. and then I saw the stage hoodie he bought online, and it was pretty cool, but it’s BIGGGGG ! It looks alright on him though (: 

AND, we alighted at CU and walked back home! So here I am, posting! 😀

Some overdued photos: (but i’ve got to stop because I’ve got online meetinggggg)

i turned pretty nineteen !

Due to the time now, I will try to keep it short yeah! Though yesterday wasn’t a really good day, had quarrels for the whole long day, today was surprisingly a really awesome one! (: And I’m really glad for that, because it’s been the best birthday I ever had for the past 19 years.

Peeps present: Lihui, Kimhong, Kai jun, Marcia, Chee kiat, Jia yu, w-huimin, Ban hock, Allan, Shin, Angella, niam, and of course my dearest baby, wong jun liang ! (:

So this morning woke up by baby’s text, I headed to bathe and prepare etc and then he came over to fetch me at 4:30 and we went to buy batteries, and took 185 over to Holland V. And right at that time, I only thought we’re going over for a simple dinner at the market and walk around. But then, I was caught off guarded because a group of them was already at the tables waiting for me @ Crystal Jade. I was like … O.O HAR? And so, for that, thankyou shin for spending time to put up the whole buffet event.!

And so the whole dinner was so enjoyable, and it’s really great to be around clique having smiles and laughter’s over the table. And most importantly, it’s (Y) to have baby serving me! Hoho birthday girl biggest X: And then when the buffet ended, we took a group photos and then took 105 down to chevrons for bowling. And the journey there, baby was like so naaaaaisy ! 😀

At chevrons, we had so much fun, and it was my first time playing bowling! It was a totally great experience because it was together with clique and also baby there to encourage me to keep trying. And then halfway out of a random, everyone sang me a birthday song, and I was so stunned, and I bet I looked retarded that moment. (Cause I always find It awkward, idk where to look when they’re singing, haha!) And when they finished, baby passed me a present, and it’s INSTANT CAMERRAAAA.! It’s really sweet because I told him that I wanted to ask mum to get me one, however I didn’t as too much unhappy incident took place recently. So yeah, baby got me one! 😀 hehe !

After a round of game, we went home together with kai, kiat and hock. Alighted at CU, went to 7-11 to get a drink, and walked home with baby. I love the walk because it’s really a very nice feeling, like…literally happiness. I wish we could spend a lot of our birthdays together, and sooooooon, in a blink of eyes, it will be his soon! 😉 And now I’m home, feeling all so happy! Before I end this post, I just want to thank all those who came, cause I really enjoyed myself a lot! 😀 Baby, thanks for everything today, and no amount of thanks is enough to express myself. I know you are not a romantic boyfriend who plans great event to surprise me, but I just want to let you know, the smiles you give me is more than anything already. And most importantly your love. I may say mean words to you at time, believe me, at the end of the day, and deepest in my heart, I always love you. I never stop loving you, neither has it been a bit lesser, for you will alway be my dearest baby. Thanks for the SOSOCHIO INSTANT CAMERAA, and everything lil things you did today. Just wanna say, I love you silly. We will always be together. (: KISSSSSES + HUGGGSS . ♥  Group photo of the day: 

HE SO CUTE RIGGGHT

D.a.n.c.e

To be honest, I really wish to go back to secondary school times- for many reasons.

 

A part of me wishes to come back over superficial reason- I want to see my boyfriend back then X: I always wondered how cool that would be to see him. Then I will tell him, ‘hey, I will be your girlfriend in the future’. Okay, that’s weird .__. I think he will be too afraid of me! Either that, I will bully him -hehehe!-

 

And another reason is because I want to dance. I miss those dance days when we practice everyday and stay until six just because we enjoy dancing so much. We can spend long hours dancing and practicing the same old 3-minute song over and over again.

 

When it’s break time, Minn (goh huimin) and I would still continue to dance. And during recess, we will open the dance room to practice. (though cedric comes in to disturb all the time because he was interested in Minn that time, lol!) Then Cedric would just sit there and watch us practice. Then after school we would pack lunch up, finish our homework together and then practice dance till six again. And I still remember how I always wished my boyfriend would be there to accompany me dance, but it never happened onece before though I was attached that time. Maybe he didn’t want to come, or it’s just me actually. He wasn’t the one I wish would be there to see me dance, so I didn’t invite him up. He was seemingly nice when he treated all the juniors to bubble tea, but it doesn’t matter anymore when you realize it’s all fake and pretense, right? I can’t even be bothered to feel a little touched. Okay, that’s not the point X:

 

I just miss how I could dance on stage like I’m not the blur jing yi everyone knows. Each time I stand up on stage, I may be a little nervous, but when the music plays, it was an indescribable awesome feeling. Maybe the jump out of myself and to display myself confidently is what I want myself to be? I don’t know.

I just want to and would love to work hard for something I enjoy:
To sweat and perspire while practicing, and then perform my best on stage.

 

BLAHBLAH. NUFF SAID. It’s time to head for bed (:

 

Schedule :

• 3 Jan : Internship Briefing 
• 5 Jan : Broadcast Journalism – News feature 500 words report (doing it now!)
• 14 Jan : Media Project – Cover Letter / CV / Resume
• 17 Jan : Media Ethics, Law & Policies – 2000 words report 
• 20 Jan : Date fixed to edit drama with Shimin (Remb to book editing room via website) 
• 24 Jan : Video Production – Submission of Documentary
• 31 Jan : Singapore perspective Global Issues – 2000 words Report 
• 7 Feb : Video Production – Submission of Drama 

AIYAAAAH, SINCE I’VE ALREADY GOT LIKE THREE POSTS FOR TODAY,

then having the fourth one shouldn’t be a problem, right? 😀

I JUST WANT TO SAY, i’m missing my baby a lot ! ): 
Hope he’s copping well with all his work ! And hopefully he gets full marks for all the three exercises!

My love ♥